Monday, December 31, 2012

Goodbye 2012

2012 was a bad year. 
Even worse than my 2009 which I was sure could not be worse. 
Apparently 2012 was up to the challenge of defeating that. 
It's also the reason why I wasn't really blogging. In fact, I have been going back and forth on whether I should just delete this blog. I've decided to keep the blog and maybe use it as some free therapy. 
The reason?
 I am not a 100% sure 2013 will be better. 
But I will put forth my effort to make it count and make some changes. 

My last blog post had me questioning myself and whether I was looking at the destination or the journey. I was not enjoying the journey of my life. I was just waiting for the "destination" part to kick in. 
It didn't. 
I need to go back to being the "Journey" type girl and making the most of it. 
It will be difficult and challenging. 
Just like 2012 was. 
What happened in 2012? 
Selling our home over the new year put us in a financial bind, my Dad had been diagnosed with prostrate cancer and needed surgery, then my uncle Bob died, then Grandma died, friend of my Dad died - all within 10 days, illnesses, broken relationships, spirit crushing changes, you name it, the list just didn't seem to end. And it didn't end well either. 
My Dads cancer is back. 
It is in his lungs, kidneys and abdomen. 
It is so aggressive that they started an aggressive chemotherapy treatment within 4 days of the doctor meeting with my parents to tell them it had spread. 
I hate cancer. 
I hate what it does to people. 
I hate hate hate hate it.  
But we have hope, we have an amazing hospital treating my Dad and we have faith. 
So we are starting 2013 with this journey. 
It will be challenging no doubt, but we are determined to get thru it.

Let the journey begin....... 


Jayne said...

{{{hug}}} Wish there was more I could do but I am in your corner Char - even if it is from far away!

Lianne said...

Your life trials have been so difficult for all of you over many years.....i have always been a shadow in the distance. I have never been far and i want you to know that i am ALWAYS here for you! The support you have from you community is an amazing blessing. I want to be part of your journey....the good times and the hard times. Over the years we ourselves have had tough times but our love always breaks thru our troubles. We are family....we are friends. I am here and will NEVER be far. I love you xoxo

Anonymous said...

Yep, 2012 was a bit of a shit kicker - to me an extension of 2011, and perhaps into 2013. I'm content to know that there are lessons in the journey and just do my best to keep my head above water - most days! Keep well my friend. HUGS that 2013 is the start of an incredible and kind journey for you!

Stacy said...

Char, I am so sorry to hear about your dad's cancer returning. I lost my grandma almost 10 years ago to cancer, and it sucks! My mother-in-law is currently battling colon cancer, and she is doing well. She is still undergoing chemo, and we will know how well it did at the end of this month. I will say extra prayers for you and your family, and know that if you need someone to talk to, I will listen. Hugs to you!