Yesterday while watching tv with Sean, a commercial for a jewellery store came on advertising a special on diamond earrings. Were they pretty? I guess. But the price was $400. I made a comment to Sean "Do you know the damage I could do in a scrapbook store with $400??"
Clearly, I am quite bitter that I can't scrapbook! Just then, the final line of the commercial blared out to me....."Make this mother's day special and show the one you love....blah, blah..." Right then it occurred to me.....next week is Mother's Day and I can't even hug my child! I was so upset and fell right back into wallowing. Yes, I can give Jonah a one arm hug, but when it has been so long you want the full on squeeze!
Sean has been amazing at keeping my spirits up. As have many of you! Before I went to my physio, I commented that it is very disheartening as it shows me how far away I am. Sean told me I was wrong. It shows me how FAR I have come. And he is right.
Yesterday I posted a wallowing moment - of where I am NOT.
Today I am posting of where I AM!
I am in a loving family.
I am in a wonderful home full of love and laughter.
I am with an amazing husband who knows no boundries of caring for his invalid wife.
I am with a sweet, loving, adorable boy who loves his mommy immensely.
I am in the company of understanding, sympathetic and generous, caring friends - some who I have never met!
I am getting better.
I am going to get thru it all.
I am in love.
I am living in happiness.
I am thankful that this morning Jonah sat on my lap and we were able to cuddle without much difficulty.
I am where I want to be.