Sunday, May 3, 2009

Where I AM

Yesterday while watching tv with Sean, a commercial for a jewellery store came on advertising a special on diamond earrings. Were they pretty? I guess. But the price was $400. I made a comment to Sean "Do you know the damage I could do in a scrapbook store with $400??"
Clearly, I am quite bitter that I can't scrapbook! Just then, the final line of the commercial blared out to me....."Make this mother's day special and show the one you love....blah, blah..." Right then it occurred to me.....next week is Mother's Day and I can't even hug my child! I was so upset and fell right back into wallowing. Yes, I can give Jonah a one arm hug, but when it has been so long you want the full on squeeze!

Sean has been amazing at keeping my spirits up. As have many of you! Before I went to my physio, I commented that it is very disheartening as it shows me how far away I am. Sean told me I was wrong. It shows me how FAR I have come. And he is right.

Yesterday I posted a wallowing moment - of where I am NOT.
Today I am posting of where I AM!

I am in a loving family.
I am in a wonderful home full of love and laughter.
I am with an amazing husband who knows no boundries of caring for his invalid wife.
I am with a sweet, loving, adorable boy who loves his mommy immensely.
I am in the company of understanding, sympathetic and generous, caring friends - some who I have never met!
I am getting better.
I am going to get thru it all.
I am in love.
I am living in happiness.
I am thankful that this morning Jonah sat on my lap and we were able to cuddle without much difficulty.

I am where I want to be.

7 comments:

Jayne said...

{{hug}} Always helps to count your blessings! So glad your spirt is happy today :) Love you!

Char said...

Thanks Jayne! I love you too!

Stacey said...

Great lessons, Char.

Have you ever seen the Oprah ep with Jenny McCarthy (no, this isn't a rant on autism advocacy).. but she was on talking about Mama Warriors and profiled a woman who lost all four of her limbs following an infection she got at the birth of her daughter. http://www.oprah.com/slideshow/oprahshow/20080910_tows_monica

I think of her quite often when I'm feeling sorry for myself that I don't have the life I thought I would have, not because it makes me feel better to know that someone has it worse than me.. but because her attitude is sooo inspiring. I am glad that you're on the path to getting that elbow better as well as feeling more positive. :)

Kyla said...

Oh Char! This is such a wonderful post! Gratitude is a healing thing!

On another note . . . you could actually be getting a step ahead in your scrapbooking, by going through and editing, printing your photos. *Just a thought! ; )

I'll be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers and hope your elbow is back to normal very soon!

shirley said...

Love this post! Reminded me to choose the positive in what life dishes out. Hang in there - this too shall soon pass.

Char said...

Thanks everyone!

Stacey - I will check out that link. You are an inspiration to many, me included.

Shirley - i needed the reminder just as much! (hugs)

Kyla - you are sweet. I sent you an email.

Stacey said...

It's ok if you have moments of being down - awesome though that despite you still find all the good! Hang in there dear girl!!!